It’s okay to be sad, angry, or frustrated. I feel myself exhibiting all of these emotions, plus guilt. Why should I feel any of this when I am safe in my home with everything I love?
It’s important to know we don’t control our feelings. We especially don’t control our feelings while going through trauma, and to be honest, a pandemic occurring within our lifetime is traumatic.You aren’t expected to know how to act or feel when you are consumed by the consistent Coronavirus coverage that’s basically being thrown at your doorstep every day.
Some of us don’t understand and feel powerless. I don’t know about any of you, but I hate feeling powerless and that all I can do is sit at home and wait. Then comes the guilt. I feel guilty because I have not much to complain about, yet I do. I am guilty because I have ample amounts of things that I want to try, but I become easily overwhelmed and don’t get to them. I am guilty because I have my health, but I am thinking about the things this virus is doing to stop me from continuing plans I looked forward to. This is okay though. You can feel these things. It’s necessary because honestly we are all grieving.
Beyond all negativity, Coronavirus has taught me so many positive lessons. It’s taught me to stop comparing myself to others. Frankly, there’s no room right now for another negative thought to plague my mind. I’ve learned that we should all be proud of ourselves for our small but mighty accomplishments. We should quit feeling guilty for things you have wanted to do but still haven’t. Being in isolation has taught me mindfulness and to enjoy the little day to day activities that quarantine has finally allowed like board games, singing more, and tie dye. I am spending more time with my husband, dog, cats, plants, video chatting with everyone I can't see in person, and I have enjoyed every moment of it. My last lesson, don’t be afraid to try new things. For me, it’s the mandolin and yoga. Do something that makes your soul happy and don't feel guilty for the things you can't get to.
Let yourself have all of these emotions. You aren’t wrong for them, but always remember, you are loved, you are wanted, and you are important.